13 - Every man for himself

  

Why shouldn’t I try and stay alive in this dog eat dog world?

If I don’t help THEM, I become like the others, slowly turning into bone.

Why shouldn’t I eat when I can?

How do I help anybody else by starving?

Do I feel guilty?

Who doesn’t?

People whisper the war goes bad for THEM.

But we hear whispers all the time with no one able to tell if any of the whispers are true.

Even if they are true, will any of us be alive when someone opens the gates to let us out?

I don’t like pointing to this person or that to say he or she should be next

But if I’m not the person pointing, I’m the person being pointed at.

Which is worse?

I hate THEM as much as any of the others do.

Yet in this world, is dying better than taking THEIR side?

Back in the ghetto when we all wore our yellow badges, when we all felt the pang of hate, I would never have thought to take THEIR side.

We are a suffering people.

We have learned to suffer together and to gain strength from that suffering.

But there is no strength here.

We live or die with suffering in-between.

There can be no lessons learned where there is no hope.

If God exists, He has abandoned us, and I must fend for myself.

In this place, it is every man for himself.



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